When you take yourself out of your usual routine environment – out of the city grind and grime – you often find a sense of clarity.
Today S and I drove a little out of the city, towards the falls. When we arrived we discovered that they were closed. This was, of course, the first warm Sunday afternoon in October. We clearly weren’t alone in our desire to appreciate Western Australia’s natural beauty that lies somewhat dormant over winter until the sun begins to shine again. Disappointed but not disheartened we drove through the countryside towards the ocean, observing spindly newborn black-faced lambs, horse floats, a roadkill kanga, and ‘pay what you feel’ plant shops by the side of the road.
We explored the train tracks towards the abandoned mine, holding hands so we could balance on either side of the tracks. S told me the mysterious tale of how a few miles of the track simply disappeared in the night, and no one knows who took it or why. We skipped rocks into a puddle in the valley below.
Clarity is clearness or lucidity as to perception and understanding; freedom from indistinctness or ambiguity. Recently, my mind has been a little bit foggy, I have been inflicted with a sense of indecision about which pathway to take with my life/career etc. I think sometimes hiking in the bush helps open your mind to the fact that there are many paths. Perhaps some are tougher than others, with more of an incline, but whichever path you take you can be sure that the scenery will still take your breath away. That is perhaps an over romanticised Robert Frost inspired metaphor to describe the crippling indecision you face as a recent University graduate… But out there in the bush, with the scent of Eucalyptus in the air, and the sun on my back, the things that kept me up until the early hours of the morning, running loops through my head, suddenly seemed altogether insignificant. I felt a sense of freedom from the ambiguity surrounding what exactly I should be doing with my career, and how I should be getting there.
Out there, I felt a sense of freedom from the ambiguity surrounding what exactly I should be doing with my career, and how I should be getting there. Today I feel a bit more at ease, while the job hunting process is still somewhat overwhelming, it no longer seems insurmountable. I don’t feel like a dole bludging loser, more like someone who is doing some soul searching and will be able to go to the beach this summer and read a book whenever she feels like it. Now hopefully this change in mindset will help me get a damn job!